Such beautiful prose about a subject so difficult sometimes I hold my breath almost the whole way through your writing. I think of Neve very often. She is not forgotten.
My husband and I tried skiing for the first time last week and enjoyed imagining Han on the slopes. In our year and a half with him he got to see ice, but no snow. He experienced some winter. He loved being outside, busting up icicles and I like to pretend that means he would have loved skiing with us. That he would have loved lessons. That his small toddler rage would have grown strong as we tried to drag him inside from the cold. It’s impossible to know for sure, but I am the expert on Han and one of the small comforts I have left is pretending I know what he might have been someday.
I Love this, thank you for sharing. Han absolutely sounds like a toddler who would have loved the snow and being on skis! I love your ownership of your Han expertise. I can picture him on tiny skis, flying down the slopes!
I loved reading this Emily. I can really imagine Neve on skis! But you're right I'm imagining her aged about 6. I really love how you have described the smoothing out of character complexities, and the particular grief that attaches to this.
Thank you for sharing your stories about Neve. My son also died of a brain tumor in 2023 at 8 years old. My grief therapist said journaling might help, but still too hard for me at this time. But I appreciate your written words, as I have had similar thoughts about my son too. Thank you for expressing your emotions to share with others. I think it's important, despite how hard it can be.
Such beautiful prose about a subject so difficult sometimes I hold my breath almost the whole way through your writing. I think of Neve very often. She is not forgotten.
Beautiful beautiful 😭❤️
So complex. So beautiful. ❤️
My husband and I tried skiing for the first time last week and enjoyed imagining Han on the slopes. In our year and a half with him he got to see ice, but no snow. He experienced some winter. He loved being outside, busting up icicles and I like to pretend that means he would have loved skiing with us. That he would have loved lessons. That his small toddler rage would have grown strong as we tried to drag him inside from the cold. It’s impossible to know for sure, but I am the expert on Han and one of the small comforts I have left is pretending I know what he might have been someday.
I Love this, thank you for sharing. Han absolutely sounds like a toddler who would have loved the snow and being on skis! I love your ownership of your Han expertise. I can picture him on tiny skis, flying down the slopes!
I loved reading this Emily. I can really imagine Neve on skis! But you're right I'm imagining her aged about 6. I really love how you have described the smoothing out of character complexities, and the particular grief that attaches to this.
Thank you Guin x
Once more I am in awe of your writing.
Thank you Zoe! I love having you here, cheering me on. x
Thank you for sharing your stories about Neve. My son also died of a brain tumor in 2023 at 8 years old. My grief therapist said journaling might help, but still too hard for me at this time. But I appreciate your written words, as I have had similar thoughts about my son too. Thank you for expressing your emotions to share with others. I think it's important, despite how hard it can be.
Beautiful, so emotional